September 28, 2004

daddy

as I was growing up, I always thought that I would be the best dad. I don't know why I thought this, I just did.

I loved kids, and usually chose to play with them at family outings and such. I also had two younger sisters, and for the most part I enjoyed playing with them. I was almost 15 when my youngest sister was born, so I was very familiar with the whole thing... or so I thought.

I had a sobering moment a couple of days ago. I looked at my children and thought, "all of the bad things they do, they learned from me." It was depressing, but oh-so-true!

Now, sometimes, I look at my kids and I wonder if I am any good at this daddy thing at all. If they survive this earth it won't be because of me, that is for sure. It will be because of the grace of God.

2 comments :

  1. I wonder about that kind of thing too.

    I know that we're all fallen and screw it up so often. I just know that I can't stop my kids picking up that kind of thing from me.

    The thing I keep coming back to is that there is no way I can be the father I should be, no matter how hard I try. Therefore I have to stay close to God and let my kids see that, so that even if they pick up lots of other crap from me, they'll also pick up a desire to stay close to him.

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  2. "I had a sobering moment a couple of days ago. I looked at my children and thought,"all of the bad things they do, they learned from me." It was depressing, but oh-so-true!"

    I don't know about that. Did they learn to lie from you? Did they learn how to be selfish and fight with each other from you? We are all depraved creatures that yes, can and do learn things from others in our lives. We can never be "perfect parents". All we can do is be Christlike, and train them how to be the same.

    Being a parent is not easy. It takes a lot of selflessness. But isn't it awesome that we can trust in the sovereignty of God to place our children in our care. It is an awesome responsibility, no doubt! But He gives us the grace to sustain us and help us be who we should be in their lives!

    And no…none of us are "good daddy's". Only our Heavenly Father. Let's try to be like Him!

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