April 10, 2009

My Prayer This Week

I have been going around to several schools this week, dropping off my resume and going to interviews. After each resume I dropped off, I was taking some time before I drove to the next school to dedicate the course of my life to God's plan. I was using a book called Valley of Vision to help me in my prayer time. I would like to share one of those prayers with you. It is called "Service and Equipment"

Thou God of my end,
Thou hast given me a fixed disposition
     to go forth and spend my life for thee;
If it be thy will let me proceed in it;
     if not, then revoke my intentions.
All I want in life is such circumstances
     as may best enable me to serve thee in the world;
To this end I leave all my concerns in thy hand,
     but let me not be discouraged,
     for this hinders my spiritual fervency;
Enable me to undertake some task for thee,
     for this refreshes and animates my soul,
     so that I could endure all hardships and labors,
     and willingly suffer for thy name.
But, O what a death it is to strive and labour,
     to be always in a hurry and yet do nothing!
Alas, time flies and I am of little use.
O that I could be a flame of fire in thy service,
     always burning out in one continual blaze.
Fit me for singular usefulness in this world.
Fit me to exult in distresses of every kind
     if they but promote the advancement of thy kingdom.
Fit me to quit all hopes of the world's friendship,
     and give me a deeper sense of my sinfulness.
Fit me to accept as just desert from thee
     any trial that may befall me.
Fit me to be totally resigned to the denial of pleasures I desire,
     and to be content to spend my time with thee.
Fit me to pray with a sense of the joy of divine communion,
     to find all times happy seasons to my soul,
     to see my own nothingness,
     and wonder that I am allowed to serve thee.
Fit me to enter the blessed world where no unclean thing is,
     and to know thee with me always.

(From page 178 of The Valley of Vision)